Hmmm

today was a hectic day. like seriously.
i think i went all over the friggen goldcoast.
i went to the southport netball courts and
umpired my first 2 games, of which i will not
get payed for :'( *tear*. I must be the suckiest
umpire in the friggen world. no wonder i didnt get
payed :(

then I was forced to go to the hospital to see my
crippled father. its not that i didnt wanna see him.
its just overhelming, seeing him in his fragile state.
he looks mal-nurished... or however you spell it. he
doesnt wanna eat. and, like, he's always had a
distinct bone structure. but now it just looks like he
has no muscle at all, like its just skin on bone. you
can see the holes in his skull where his eyes sit, and
the gap between the two bones in his arm, you can
see right through. I cant stand to see him like that.
it kills me to see him like this. I dont want to have
to deal with this anymore... im not coping. and im
just hoping that he rises above this, when he does,
i will.

at the moment i am with sharni, tyler, kai && Abby.
we made Kai's will as he is about to pass due to abby
eating him.

probs should go socialise with the homo's :)

toodles
xx