Hmmm

today was a hectic day. like seriously.
i think i went all over the friggen goldcoast.
i went to the southport netball courts and
umpired my first 2 games, of which i will not
get payed for :'( *tear*. I must be the suckiest
umpire in the friggen world. no wonder i didnt get
payed :(

then I was forced to go to the hospital to see my
crippled father. its not that i didnt wanna see him.
its just overhelming, seeing him in his fragile state.
he looks mal-nurished... or however you spell it. he
doesnt wanna eat. and, like, he's always had a
distinct bone structure. but now it just looks like he
has no muscle at all, like its just skin on bone. you
can see the holes in his skull where his eyes sit, and
the gap between the two bones in his arm, you can
see right through. I cant stand to see him like that.
it kills me to see him like this. I dont want to have
to deal with this anymore... im not coping. and im
just hoping that he rises above this, when he does,
i will.

at the moment i am with sharni, tyler, kai && Abby.
we made Kai's will as he is about to pass due to abby
eating him.

probs should go socialise with the homo's :)

toodles
xx

Youthstreet

Today was pretty bad in a few ways, yet nice in a few others

Dad had his operation today- and he did come out of the anaesthetic. which is good, i guess.
still pretty sick and shizzle, and its not really going anywhere, like he's not getting better, but he's not getting worse.
in some ways its good.
but what would be better is if he didnt get sick at all
and only my close friends know that im not coping at all with it.
anyway, not gna go into too much depth but yeah.
its been a pretty rough for months. and life has kinda gone down hill from december.
on the other hand I got some nice hugs today- which was awesome. all the people I hug on a daily basis give really comforting hugs. the one this afternoon sticks out tho- it made me feel all warm and fuzzy and all that mushy stuff inside :) haha. and im not going to say who i got it from coz ill be teased for the rest of my blogging life :)

Youthstreet was tonight :)
And i was on a maccas high all night, coz i had maccas before i left home.
so, me on a high, is like, a 2 year old who has just seen santa clause. especially a maccas high.

so to those of you who read this right the the end, congrats for paying attention to this.

xx

Shittiest Day

Today was a really shit day.
I hated it.

some of you may know that my dad is really sick. and cannot go under general anaesthetic coz its too risky that he wont live. and today i was told that they are going to put him under anaesthetic. and so thats when my day started to turn to sludge.

then I had an argument or whatever with someone who I love more than my own life.
over something so silly.
in a way its not my fault; they took it wrongly.
but then it is my fault that I brought it up in the first place.
and now its going to be awful and bad tomorrow if i dont fix it.

Yes, Tay Has a Blog Timmy

haha. yes timmy. I have a blog. You demonized me. I'm ashamed of you timmy.. demonizing the poor, little 13 year old kiddies like Mcfaggot. haha. *waves to brother man*

So this is really a pointless blog.
not exactly the most entertaining blog ever.
but i wanted to give a shout out to Sharni- as she came to school today after 10 months off with Leukaemia.

I had a pretty sweet day-
People actually got on today. I wanted sharni and Jake to bond, and they did. i was so pleased that they are friends now :)

ever since yesterday afternoon it has been good, to be honest.
im not gna say why. but it was good.

see how this blog is pointless?!
you just wasted a few minutes of your life by reading a gay-bo blog :)
suck to be you
:P


xx

First Blog- :O

So this is my offical first blog :O
exciting yes? not really.

So you all know that I attend youthstreet- part of Robina Uniting Church- and I am Christian. If you didn't know that... read the description thing over there >>>>>>

So Jonno persuaded me to attend Church today- Which I had no objections with.
And so I got there.. went into the church in the usual spot i find them... and they weren't there...
so i was like 'oh... okay'
& i started to call Jaimee, but didn't get past the first dial tone when i spotted her sexy ass :) (Jonno would defs agree :]- he's her boyfriend btw guys... just, humiliating them by putting it all over cyber world, lol) and following her was Jonno, and i was like WOAH... he's with his girlfriend, how devastating, lol. nah, i was happy to see him... then Timmy and Nicole followed and i was like :O how awesome is that man :)

and i had been in a funny mood for, pretty much 2 weeks now;; where i just want a hug- from anyone. Some friggin random off the street with a can of lemonade and rabies could have hugged me- and i would have been stoked. And today my mood was gone after like, the first 2 hugs.
if i remember rightly, they were from Jaimee and Timmy :)
Jonno's not one to hug lightly- not even mcfaggot. But when it comes to holding jaimee in his arms :) he friggin craves for it like I crave mcdonalds :)

now timmy, jaimee & nicole are leaders at Kidzlife- which is pretty much where the young ones go and play games and talk about christianity and God and sing a few songs, where jonno can't play distortion in :( haha- and they had jonno playing on his guitar today, and i just stood there, at the back whilst they were all doing their thing :)

whilst the crafty-type shizzle was on, Timmy, Jonno & I decided to take a little trip to the one place i can always find happiness- mcdonalds :)
i swear- if i ever meet the legendary mcdonalds creator... i will be like a 3 year old with red cordial.
anyway- so we were walking through the parking lot at the Q, and Jonno stumbles across a butter container thing from maccas (you know those little containers filled with spreads and shizzle? chyeahh.. those) and he thought it was empty.. so Jonno decided to act on impulse and kick it... little did he know that it was filled with melted butter... so when he kicked it, he got a nice coating of melted butter on his foot :) Timmy and I loled... HARD :P

about 20 minutes after we sat down at maccas, Riggerz, Dan, and a few of the other male leaders came at sat with us. And coz i am the youngest out of Jonno, timmy and myself... i already felt belittled... then;; i had 4 or 5 other males, around the age of 20 coming to sit with us... so i was like :O

and to top it all off.... i was the ONLY friggin chick... unlesss; there is something Jonno isnt telling me :)

once we got back to the church centre;; Jonno and Timmy had to start their 10pm session of kidzlife, so once again- i was standing at the back of the hall, waiting for them to finish their thing. but this time: JESS WAS THERE :) i didnt feel so lonesome anymore :) haha

so there you have it: my first blog...
its pretty shit, i know... im not a very interesting person.. and i have a lot of jokes that you kinda had to be there to find funny. its now 10pm and i think i shall go get ready for education tomorrow :

oh the joys of school :

toodles
xxx